January 2010
24 posts
Slow and steady
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY, SHAFIQAH AND ZHENGQUAN! Hope you two like the card!
I dont want to be sixteen. Because I know it wont be a good sixteen for me.
I get asked all the time. They took turns to ask whether am I all by myself now. What I could do was to look down and nod my head. Soon, I received a shock from their faces and I knew it would happen. Go ahead, mock at me. I dont really care now....
Irascible
Where is my privacy? It shouldnt be this way. You shouldnt be reading my privacy and yelling all the way. Now, I’m just somebody who is seriously empty.
I can’t wait for term tests to end because I want to do what I’ve been wanting to. I feel like I don’t even have a life this few weeks. It’s only the start of a new beginning and I feel so horrible. I encountered all...
“Please cheer up even if the world is crashing down”
– Amanda Khoo
(This is my 100th post dedicated to my butt 5 especially Mingshan & Yvonne)
Remorse
Guru, please slap me and say “Get a grip on yourself” again. I need it.
It’s great to know how you feel. At least I still have my motivation to do well, if not I think I wont even be doing anything. Aneh, I need your shoulders.
Nothing really comes easy. Nothing goes off easy either. You know it’s hard.
Drunk
People always say, “Don’t drive when you’re drunk.” But I would like to say, “Don’t even go home when you’re drunk.”
That guy who puked beer in the bus was really self-centered. The beer that came out from his throat messed up the whole bus and filled the bus with heavy smell of alcohol. The best was, he sat behind me. _l_
Today’s training...
Past
I went off straight after powernap. As usual, I went home taking the same route. From the station to the 2nd bus stop and to the 3rd bus stop opposite chong pang. This route holds too many memories for me that’s why I never fail not to take that route home. I saw Vincent and I waved. I then walked to the building we used to go to. I stared at the building for quite a moment and went to the...
Heart to heart talk
Thank you for the heart to heart talk, Guru and Eugene. Eugene, you really do make a lot of sense. Thank you. And I realise that I need a heart to heart talk with you.
Damn, the sec ones have my number and they’re spamming me calls. My phone number in exchange with my drill cane. Wtf. Should have gave them the drill cane instead. Now I’m having unknown numbers visiting my phone and...
Promises
Me: Promises are meant to be broken.
You: No, they're not if you dont want to.
Me: (In my heart) Please do what you mean 'cos I'm yearning for your eternal love
Back to normal
Tumblarity zero! Time to get up and be myself again! Wake up wake up wake up and boooom, I’m me again.
Things aint the same now but I guess I’ll be okay. (No, I must!) I’ve heard so much from humans and I realised that I’m affecting too many people. Also, I’ve hurt myself a lot and must put an end to it. One of the advices, “You gotta take good care of yourself...
Love me
Today is the worst day I ever had. I never cry like this before. With legs and hands shaking uncontrollably. With my face and hands numb, no feelings at all. I gasped for air, with crying in between. Thank you Ali for slapping me. Thank you for being there. If not, I would have been awarded to the hospital. I never felt so fragile in my life. My love is my everything. Without you, I am nothing.
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